Again, Darkness Rises

When you feel
that sadness coming on
A blanket of blankness
and you know what it is
So you think it through,
think it tough
Confront how pointless it is
that its timing is meaningless
Detail how it has strangled
the twinkle in your eye
within a very last breath
But the darkness strengthens anyway
until you're again
completely smothered in its shit
And you think this time
you weren't good enough
vigilant enough or determined enough
And maybe you think
you'll never be good enough